This is kind of a loaded topic...
I suppose my current relationship status would be considered single...since there is no real "title" for someone who lost a boyfriend...
I think the hardest thing about this whole situation is that a lot of people kind of just expect you to move on as if it were a break-up, but let me tell you this, I have broken up with guys, I have had guys break up with me, and this no where near resembles anything close to a break-up! I know how to move on from a "broken" relationship....this...I have no idea how to move on from this. Our relationship wasn't broken. He didn't end it...I didn't end it...God did.
When you are a 26-year-old "not-really-a-widow", you hear pretty frequently "you are still young" and "you will find someone else". Those aren't really things you want to hear when you just lost a huge piece of your heart. It's just not something you even want to think about. Even though that person isn't here, and you are technically "single", your heart hasn't accepted what your head knows.
It's not that I didn't agree with these well-meaning people when they were telling me these things. In the very back of my mind and heart, I do hope to find love again someday. I figure God will let it happen if it's supposed to happen. Until then, I am just doing the one thing I know how to do best, and that is being a mom to my daughter.
Because of Nick, I know how to love and be loved, and maybe, among other things, that is what he was meant to teach me.
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